little ode to some important souls .. who showed me the way

i am not a famous person.. i could never go and stage and thank all the people who have been architects of who i am ..
i am still lost.. still in search of who i am ... still wandering
but in the night when i talk to moon and play with stars..inside the serenity of my being ...tears roll down my cheek .... thinking ....

my parents went against societal norms to educate me .. knowing i will be somebody's wife one day and i will unlike sons never be able to give back their investment (emotional and financial) on me to them in any form....when i cried they howled, when i hurt they died... they helped me discover god.. they are my god....

my younger sister saved her savings to gift an easel and oil paints to me only because i told her about this incessant and uncontrolled urge in me to lift a brush...when i did not know how to hold it!! ...she taught me selflessness.... she reinforced the fact that we have been together.. for lifetimes

my elder sister gave up her saving to gift me golden earings...knowing well that she needed the money for her children's education... knowing well .. that i will never give back to her what she gave me .. knowing well ... i will not be there for her when she really needs me .... knowing everything well...she taught me ... loving is knowing everything and yet....loving...

they told me ....world out there is tough.. they cheat.. .they misuse.. and i left myself to all the friends who happened to my life... and...they enveloped me like a baby and sealed me from the cold waves....they were my trust.. they showed me ...world was good..

when i started working ... people cautioned... the world out there is out to get you ... i left myself to my mentors who guided me through and protected me like a rock...they taught me .... world was good

a simple soul... my husband.... showed me how love can happen without rose and chocolate.. he taught me ...loving was forgiving...loving was helping your wife when she is tired ... loving was preparing dinner for your spouse when she did not want to .. loving was ..saving your pocket money to get her a camera because she loved photography... he reinforced my belief.. that we meet soulmates.. .that love exists...

tears drop ... and roll down my cheeks...when ...

amidst stars and while playing with wind ....

i think of all the angels..who happened to my life... and made it so beautiful......

this is my humble ode to them ....